Faith's little bundle of joy

Hey all..

My phone is dead. Horrible and tragic accident involving a bed, a phone, a large bounce and a large glass of water....ugh.

Anyway the long and the short of it is that I have lost all my numbers!! So if you guys could be so kind and either text me your numbers (telling me who you are ;) ) or PM me at either NWP or GBM I would be VERY grateful!!

Thanks!!

I stole this from fergus80

( Try it.. )

I'm totally gutted. I can't even express how I feel just now.

It wasn't even a free kick, and they scored from it in the dying seconds. Shocking. The referee better leave scotland fast.

Sickening. Absolutely heartbreaking.

The dream is dead.

The whole of Scotland seems to have fallen into mourning, there are going to be some sore heads tomorrow, mine included.

Another glorious failure, but this time we didn't deserve it. We beat France home and away - and nothing. Nothing.

Well I am stuck in the library again. I have all but given up on sleeping and my social life. Celtic ( one of the loves of my life, oh and football/soccer if you didn't know..) are playing right now, but on our recent form I just couldn't face watching it. I am not even listening to it. This is the first European game in 5 years I have missed. But I'm feeling really down tonight, and far too frgaile to beat Celtic lose without dissolving into uncontrollable tears.

So I decided to check LJ and I found this on erin_giles 's LJ. And I had to steal it! :)

( Here goes.. )

I think I am drowning in course work. I mean damn it there are just not enough hours in the week!!! For once I am glad of my insomnia..

If any one is looking for me, just look underneath the big pile of smallpox journals in the library.. *sigh*

Just seen the new episode of Grey's anatomy.... HUGE fangirl sssqqqquuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeee moment!! *bounces around*

Okay, and I'm done... now bring on SUPERNATURAL!!

*bounces*

Back to uni for the first full day today - can I just say, I LOVE MY COURSE!!! :) :) (this may change over the course of the year.. but for now, it rocks!)

Cat is still ill, trying not to think too much about it - her next vet appointment is on friday..

In other news, I got very drunk at a party while dressed up as a pirate, my laptop is dead *sobs*, I went on a roadtrip to the Scottish Highlands with my best friend (had an amazing, if slightly wet and surreal time), I joined the uni mountaineering club, my two best female friends moved to different countries (from me, and each other), oh and I miss Keira. Loads.

Short and sweet huh?! :D

Took my cat to the vet today.. they think it is a problem with her throat. Gave her injections of antibiotics and steroids to help reduce the swelling that may be inside her throat.. but if there is no improvement in her condition by monday they say they will have to sedate her and examine it. I know the vet really well and she was totally straight with me - if they need to sedate her and examine her the chances are something more sinister is going on..

She has to be okay though, she needs to be. Anyone that has ever seen me with Jenny knows the alternative doesn't ever bear thinking about.

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

I am knackered, I need to work less, worry less and party less. All three seem to have sucked out all of my energy. Feel like I haven't slept in months.

Good news - it is not lung cancer.

Bad news - she is still pretty seriously ill, and they don't know why. Cue extensive tests.

I also got news that my cat is really ill. Any if you who have ever met Jenny will know that I care about her more than almost anything in existence.. she is like my child. She kinda is, I have always treated her as such. Anyway I have to go back home to take her to the vet. They won't do it themselves.. I can't make it home until thursday.. and I swear if anything happens to her because she has to wait.. *screams*

Anyway enough of that - I am going to finish answering my PM's then head back to bed.. or at least that is the plan.. cue insomnia...lol

Just got some potentially bad news. My mum called to tell me that my mama (my mum's mum) who has been ill for sometime got the results of her second chest x-ray back today. She has a 'shadow' in her lungs. She is seeing the specialist at the hospital on thursday. Here is the kicker..it is the same specialist my grandad (her husband) was sent to see before he died from lung cancer. My mum is in a pretty bad way about it. I can understand why...

I have not spoken to her myself..I'm not sure what to say. This 'shadow' added to all her other symptoms screams cancer..but I don't really want to think about that right now. Guess I will just have to keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best..whatever that may be.

Oh yeah I randomly did another blog thing too stolen from infiticus :

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I'm not sure what is up with me. Suddenly very depressed today. Creatively so at least - the plot bunnies are getting more and more insistent, may have to actually write something soon.

Read a lot of Doctor Who fics - not really helping my mood though... I always was a sucker for angst. Today even the fluff just makes me feel worse, it just made me feel very alone.

I am bored of the internet, bored of tv, of the gym, of everything. Bored of all the other things I love, and the worse part - their is no damn reason for any of it. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

I'm starting to get annoyed at myself now, so I am going to stop whining and get on with it. Got work tomorrow - if all else fails at least that will take my mind off it.

Well I am back at my parents house a lot sooner than I expected. This has the advantage that I can get on the net and mIRC.. but I wish I was here under happier circumstances.

When I was out with some friends in a bar last night I got a sobbing phone call from my little sister. Our long time family pet, or I should say, *her* long time family pet, Anya the rabbit died yesterday. My sister was understandably in a bit of a state about it, so I promised to come home today to bury the rabbit and to see how she was doing. She is not in from school yet, and as yet I have not been out to see the bunny - so I have not idea how I feel about it yet. I hate it when we loose a pet, they just become such a large part of the family. I suspect that seeing her will make me rather sad.

On a lighter note, Anya is not the only bunny I have been dealing with today.. plot bunnies are jumping out at me in ever direction...I even manged to get some down on paper before they all escaped me. They are from many different fandoms - most of which I have never written before. Weird - I have no idea what has brought this on at all.

I'm back from Tenerife. I think it is the rain and cold here but I am suddenly very depressed - not to mention frozen. It is like 15 degrees colder here. Grrr.

Also having internet issues in the flat - no idea what has gone wrong but apparently our internet has been down since Tuesday. Thankfully my new flat is literally less than 5 minutes from the Uni library which has 24/7 broadband access. Have been in here for almost 3 hours now, read lots of fluff and I am still not any more cheerful than when I arrived. The plus side is that as this is midway through the uni holidays, I have seen maybe 3 people in the building all day. I mean me have 11 floors and hundreds of computers so I pretty much have free range. It is strange, but also very calming. Only real side is that the uni server blocks mIRC...so no chat for me then.

Will tell you more about the holiday when I am feeling in a better mood.

Hey guys,

Sorry I have no time to read any journals just now - I am currently in Tenereife :)

I really am sad enough that I hunted down an internet connection (nearly had a hissy fit when all of them were taking my little kids..) during my holiday just to check on the board and answer my PM´s.. I am starting to think I spend just a little *too* much time on NWP.. ah well can´t be helped ;)

Anyway sorry if any emails/ PMs go unanswered until Sat, when I will be back home hopefully more tanned (doubtful), less stressed (very doubtful) and less burned than when I left (extremly doubtful)!!

Until then *rushes off for cold drinks and more sunshine in which to read my books*

I just got off the phone to my mum - the woman drives me crazy! A 5 min conversation and I already want to scream. I talk, she doesn't listen.. sometimes I wonder if it is even worth the effort or if I should just smile and agree from the start... I have never been happier to have my own flat back - at least this way I can hang up the phone when I have had enough!

On a happier and far less serious note, I was checking the posts from my f-list and ended up doing more blog things.. sad, but oh so entertaining..lol

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Just moved into my new flat today.. the wireless network here isn't that reliable - but the landlord is looking into getting us a new one.. hopefully it will be okay though - I have got very used to being back in chat 24/7!! Alone though, syrai.. where did you go?! All of the nuns get back to chat, lol!

I am tired, moving is shattered, I am happy though - I swear another second with my family and all hell would have broken loose..

Loved HP, was dying to talk about it so have been avoiding LJ, lol. Still don't want to say anything...I hate to be spoiled, so I avoid spoilers! :)

In NWP news, I am trying to start a SN writing competition, so far feedback from the writers has been good - think I will go ahead with it... And Oh yeah... I HATE HYPERBOARDS!!!!! grrrr.. They changed the coding unnecessarily.. damn frustrating!!

Erm, and that's it :)

Home might suck but I finally convinced my dad to come in out of the dark ages.. we got a home hub and now I have wireless!! I can use my laptop again.. *dances*

I no longer need to fight to get on the computer.. prepare to see more of me!! hehe

So I am back home at my parents house for a month or so to help out... oh god I'm bored. I moved out of my lovely flat in the city just to moved back to a stupid big old house in the country. I went from having friends all around me and things to do to being stuck here.. didn't I mention I have no friends here anymore? Nothing. Grr.

That and the helping out things is hard and depressing.. I never have a second to myself and my parents are fighting like cat and dog 24/7. Add in my mum's illness and Louise's eating disorder and it is the best place ever. Oh and I had a huge spider in my bed. I swear they just wait for the most arachnophobic person they can find and then go scare them half to death for kicks. Needless to say after that I haven't slept in a few days...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok. I feel better now.

On the plus side I got a new mobile phone today.. just text me/ email me for the new number!

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile...life has been, well crazy. This isn't really an update - more a rambling rant. You have been warned.

( Rambling.. )

One another note, while not sleeping, I have been catching up on some episodes of supernatural.. I am up to the 'Folsom Prison blues' episode. Loving it! :)