Faith's little bundle of joy

Phone

2008-04-29T23:11:29Z

Hey all..

My phone is dead. Horrible and tragic accident involving a bed, a phone, a large bounce and a large glass of water....ugh.

Anyway the long and the short of it is that I have lost all my numbers!! So if you guys could be so kind and either text me your numbers (telling me who you are ;) ) or PM me at either NWP or GBM I would be VERY grateful!!

Thanks!!

Meme

2008-02-08T03:12:19Z

I stole this from fergus80

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A.
2) What was your dream growing up?
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3) What talent do you wish you had?
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4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.
5) Favorite vegetable?
A.
6) What was the last book you read?
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7) What zodiac sign are you?
A.
8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A.
9) Worst Habit?
A.
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.
11) What is your favorite sport?
A.
12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A.
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A.
16) Do you have any pets?
A.
17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.
18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
A.
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A.
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.
22) What color eyes do you have?
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23) Ever been arrested?
A.
24) Bottle or can soda?
A.
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.
27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A.
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A.
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
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30) Do you swear a lot?
A.
31) Biggest pet peeve?
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32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
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33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.
35) Do you believe in God?
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36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A.

Scotland 1 - Italy 2

2007-11-17T19:06:40Z

I'm totally gutted. I can't even express how I feel just now.

It wasn't even a free kick, and they scored from it in the dying seconds. Shocking. The referee better leave scotland fast.

Sickening. Absolutely heartbreaking.

The dream is dead.

The whole of Scotland seems to have fallen into mourning, there are going to be some sore heads tomorrow, mine included.

Another glorious failure, but this time we didn't deserve it. We beat France home and away - and nothing. Nothing.

Tv meme thing

2007-10-24T19:26:39Z

Well I am stuck in the library again. I have all but given up on sleeping and my social life. Celtic ( one of the loves of my life, oh and football/soccer if you didn't know..) are playing right now, but on our recent form I just couldn't face watching it. I am not even listening to it. This is the first European game in 5 years I have missed. But I'm feeling really down tonight, and far too frgaile to beat Celtic lose without dissolving into uncontrollable tears.

So I decided to check LJ and I found this on erin_giles 's LJ. And I had to steal it! :)

Name your top six TV shows right now, before reading the questions.

1. Grey's Anatomy
2. Supernatural
3. Buffy
4. House MD
5. Doctor Who
6. Firefly

1. Who is your favorite character from #2?
DEAN! (no contest ;) )

2. Who is your least favorite character from #4?
Cameron. She just bugs me... she is just everything I never want to be.

3. What would a crossover between #1 and #5 include?
The very yummy David Tennant, erm I mean the Doctor, could get hurt and have to go to seattle grace.. or maybe he could be one of the guys merideth picks up at the bar. Oh I have loads of ideas for this one. I could just see Bailey's face if the doctor was to turn up!! lol!!

4. Who is your favorite ship from #6?
I was always quite fond of Jayne/River and Jayne/Kaylee.. don't ask me why...lol. Read some Mal/Jayne too though!! Hell I just love Jayne! :)

5. If you were to set one person from #3 and one person from #6 on a blind date, who would they be?
Xander and Kaylee.. awww so cute! :)

6. If you could meet one person from #4 and spend the day with them, who would it be, and what would you do?
LMAO.. would totally have to be Hugh Lawrie.. I'm not sure I would be able to stop laughing long enough to draw breath!

7. If you could change one thing about #2's plot line, what would you change?
All the female characters.. I mean come on!

8. Explain a relationship between two people (not necessarily romantic) from show #5, and why you like the relationship between them?
I always loved the relationship between The Doctor and Jack. The dynamic between them is great, and I feel like so much of what goes on between them goes unsaid. In a lot of ways, especially in later season they really are the only people who can understand each other. they are united in thier loss of Rose, and the Doctor seems drawn to him and yet forced away from him at the same time.. it just rocks.

9. If the lead title characters (first name in the credit sequence) from #1 and #3 were both drowning, and you could only save one, who would it be? Erm that would be Merideth vs Buffy, not sure you could have asked me a harder question. My old love vs my new one.. Well Buffy died twice and survived, drowned once actually.. but Merideth also drowned and survived..lol the irony! Erm.. so..erm Buffy! Then McDreamy or McSteamy would have to save Mer ;)

10. If you could change the title characters' order in the credits for #4, what order would you choose? The exact same order I think..

11. If you were able to add a new character, any kind of character you wanted, to the storyline for #6, what would the character be like, and what would their role be?
A child for Zoe and Wash. I would just like to have seen that.. Crazy Uncle Jayne.. hehe!

12. What happens in your favorite episode of show #2?
Erm, I don't know. I don't have a fav..Every time Dean smiles I enjoy it! ;)

13. If you could kill off one of the characters in #1, who would it be and how would you do it? Lexie. Nothing too dramatic..'cause then she would get even more screen time.. but painfully would be good :)

14. If you got the chance to visit the set for either show #3 or show #5, which would you choose? Buffy!! It is still my fav show of all time.. meet the cast, see inside Giles condo, walk in the graveyards.. go to the Bronze... I would be in fangirl heaven!! I would never come down from that high! lol

Too much work, too little time..

2007-10-17T23:27:38Z

I think I am drowning in course work. I mean damn it there are just not enough hours in the week!!! For once I am glad of my insomnia..

If any one is looking for me, just look underneath the big pile of smallpox journals in the library.. *sigh*

SQUUUEEEEEEEE!

2007-09-28T22:13:30Z

Just seen the new episode of Grey's anatomy.... HUGE fangirl sssqqqquuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeee moment!! *bounces around*

Okay, and I'm done... now bring on SUPERNATURAL!!

*bounces*

Quick Update

2007-09-25T20:00:13Z

Back to uni for the first full day today - can I just say, I LOVE MY COURSE!!! :) :) (this may change over the course of the year.. but for now, it rocks!)

Cat is still ill, trying not to think too much about it - her next vet appointment is on friday..

In other news, I got very drunk at a party while dressed up as a pirate, my laptop is dead *sobs*, I went on a roadtrip to the Scottish Highlands with my best friend (had an amazing, if slightly wet and surreal time), I joined the uni mountaineering club, my two best female friends moved to different countries (from me, and each other), oh and I miss Keira. Loads.

Short and sweet huh?! :D

Jenny

2007-09-07T20:12:03Z

Took my cat to the vet today.. they think it is a problem with her throat. Gave her injections of antibiotics and steroids to help reduce the swelling that may be inside her throat.. but if there is no improvement in her condition by monday they say they will have to sedate her and examine it. I know the vet really well and she was totally straight with me - if they need to sedate her and examine her the chances are something more sinister is going on..

She has to be okay though, she needs to be. Anyone that has ever seen me with Jenny knows the alternative doesn't ever bear thinking about.

Meme

2007-09-06T23:48:16Z

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

"Another sleepless night turns color black and white..."

2007-09-01T14:58:17Z

I am knackered, I need to work less, worry less and party less. All three seem to have sucked out all of my energy. Feel like I haven't slept in months.

Good news - it is not lung cancer.

Bad news - she is still pretty seriously ill, and they don't know why. Cue extensive tests.

I also got news that my cat is really ill. Any if you who have ever met Jenny will know that I care about her more than almost anything in existence.. she is like my child. She kinda is, I have always treated her as such. Anyway I have to go back home to take her to the vet. They won't do it themselves.. I can't make it home until thursday.. and I swear if anything happens to her because she has to wait.. *screams*

Anyway enough of that - I am going to finish answering my PM's then head back to bed.. or at least that is the plan.. cue insomnia...lol

dé·jà vu

2007-08-29T12:51:30Z

Just got some potentially bad news. My mum called to tell me that my mama (my mum's mum) who has been ill for sometime got the results of her second chest x-ray back today. She has a 'shadow' in her lungs. She is seeing the specialist at the hospital on thursday. Here is the kicker..it is the same specialist my grandad (her husband) was sent to see before he died from lung cancer. My mum is in a pretty bad way about it. I can understand why...

I have not spoken to her myself..I'm not sure what to say. This 'shadow' added to all her other symptoms screams cancer..but I don't really want to think about that right now. Guess I will just have to keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best..whatever that may be.

Oh yeah I randomly did another blog thing too stolen from infiticus :

You scored as Engineer, Military Engineer. Your job is usually overlooked, but without you nothing gets done. While you sometimes get annoyed at this, and and you know the only time people come to you is when there's something wrong: You understand that you are the heart and soul of any organization with honesty and nice work ethic to boot. Hard working, intelligent,

"I need more Duct Tape!!!"

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Engineer

88%

Combat Infantry/Armor

88%

Artillery/Aircraft

88%

Special Ops

75%

Medic

75%

Support Gunner

75%

Officer

50%

Civilian

13%

Which soldier type are you?
created with QuizFarm.com

Pointless self-pity

2007-08-22T17:30:14Z

I'm not sure what is up with me. Suddenly very depressed today. Creatively so at least - the plot bunnies are getting more and more insistent, may have to actually write something soon.

Read a lot of Doctor Who fics - not really helping my mood though... I always was a sucker for angst. Today even the fluff just makes me feel worse, it just made me feel very alone.

I am bored of the internet, bored of tv, of the gym, of everything. Bored of all the other things I love, and the worse part - their is no damn reason for any of it. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

I'm starting to get annoyed at myself now, so I am going to stop whining and get on with it. Got work tomorrow - if all else fails at least that will take my mind off it.

It must be bunnies...

2007-08-21T15:26:47Z

Well I am back at my parents house a lot sooner than I expected. This has the advantage that I can get on the net and mIRC.. but I wish I was here under happier circumstances.

When I was out with some friends in a bar last night I got a sobbing phone call from my little sister. Our long time family pet, or I should say, *her* long time family pet, Anya the rabbit died yesterday. My sister was understandably in a bit of a state about it, so I promised to come home today to bury the rabbit and to see how she was doing. She is not in from school yet, and as yet I have not been out to see the bunny - so I have not idea how I feel about it yet. I hate it when we loose a pet, they just become such a large part of the family. I suspect that seeing her will make me rather sad.

On a lighter note, Anya is not the only bunny I have been dealing with today.. plot bunnies are jumping out at me in ever direction...I even manged to get some down on paper before they all escaped me. They are from many different fandoms - most of which I have never written before. Weird - I have no idea what has brought this on at all.

faithrss @ 2007-08-18T12:54:00

2007-08-18T12:23:26Z

I'm back from Tenerife. I think it is the rain and cold here but I am suddenly very depressed - not to mention frozen. It is like 15 degrees colder here. Grrr.

Also having internet issues in the flat - no idea what has gone wrong but apparently our internet has been down since Tuesday. Thankfully my new flat is literally less than 5 minutes from the Uni library which has 24/7 broadband access. Have been in here for almost 3 hours now, read lots of fluff and I am still not any more cheerful than when I arrived. The plus side is that as this is midway through the uni holidays, I have seen maybe 3 people in the building all day. I mean me have 11 floors and hundreds of computers so I pretty much have free range. It is strange, but also very calming. Only real side is that the uni server blocks mIRC...so no chat for me then.

Will tell you more about the holiday when I am feeling in a better mood.

Hola! waves

2007-08-13T18:13:17Z

Hey guys,

Sorry I have no time to read any journals just now - I am currently in Tenereife :)

I really am sad enough that I hunted down an internet connection (nearly had a hissy fit when all of them were taking my little kids..) during my holiday just to check on the board and answer my PM´s.. I am starting to think I spend just a little *too* much time on NWP.. ah well can´t be helped ;)

Anyway sorry if any emails/ PMs go unanswered until Sat, when I will be back home hopefully more tanned (doubtful), less stressed (very doubtful) and less burned than when I left (extremly doubtful)!!

Until then *rushes off for cold drinks and more sunshine in which to read my books*

faithrss @ 2007-08-04T11:55:00

2007-08-04T11:13:43Z

I just got off the phone to my mum - the woman drives me crazy! A 5 min conversation and I already want to scream. I talk, she doesn't listen.. sometimes I wonder if it is even worth the effort or if I should just smile and agree from the start... I have never been happier to have my own flat back - at least this way I can hang up the phone when I have had enough!

On a happier and far less serious note, I was checking the posts from my f-list and ended up doing more blog things.. sad, but oh so entertaining..lol

I couldn't resist after I saw this on fergus80's journal - I had it to see which house I would be sorted into.. yes I am a HP geek - deal with it.

Sort me!

Ravenclaw huh? I can deal with that :)

You Are 60% Independent

Overall, you're a pretty independent woman. You don't follow trends just to fit in.
You've got your own cool thing going on, though you sometimes still care too much about what other's think.

Are You an Independent Woman?

You Are Not Prissy

You're the furthest thing from a princess - and you probably stay far away from any princess types you know.
You have an easygoing approach to living. It doesn't take a lot to make you happy.
And when life requires it, you're ready to get your hand a little dirty.
There's no problem you're too prissy to tackle!

How Prissy Are You?

Well that is reassuring ;)

Your Vampire Name Is...

Minerva of the Damned

What's Your Vampire Name?

Lol, if you say so.. my cats name is minerva..

You Are 60% Grown Up, 40% Kid

You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature.
You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

In other words I'm a moody bitch huh? Fair enough...lol

Hello,, from the new flat :)

2007-08-01T15:16:03Z

Just moved into my new flat today.. the wireless network here isn't that reliable - but the landlord is looking into getting us a new one.. hopefully it will be okay though - I have got very used to being back in chat 24/7!! Alone though, syrai.. where did you go?! All of the nuns get back to chat, lol!

I am tired, moving is shattered, I am happy though - I swear another second with my family and all hell would have broken loose..

Loved HP, was dying to talk about it so have been avoiding LJ, lol. Still don't want to say anything...I hate to be spoiled, so I avoid spoilers! :)

In NWP news, I am trying to start a SN writing competition, so far feedback from the writers has been good - think I will go ahead with it... And Oh yeah... I HATE HYPERBOARDS!!!!! grrrr.. They changed the coding unnecessarily.. damn frustrating!!

Erm, and that's it :)

Wireless!

2007-07-01T23:38:45Z

Home might suck but I finally convinced my dad to come in out of the dark ages.. we got a home hub and now I have wireless!! I can use my laptop again.. *dances*

I no longer need to fight to get on the computer.. prepare to see more of me!! hehe

Pointless Rant

2007-06-24T18:12:54Z

So I am back home at my parents house for a month or so to help out... oh god I'm bored. I moved out of my lovely flat in the city just to moved back to a stupid big old house in the country. I went from having friends all around me and things to do to being stuck here.. didn't I mention I have no friends here anymore? Nothing. Grr.

That and the helping out things is hard and depressing.. I never have a second to myself and my parents are fighting like cat and dog 24/7. Add in my mum's illness and Louise's eating disorder and it is the best place ever. Oh and I had a huge spider in my bed. I swear they just wait for the most arachnophobic person they can find and then go scare them half to death for kicks. Needless to say after that I haven't slept in a few days...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok. I feel better now.

On the plus side I got a new mobile phone today.. just text me/ email me for the new number!

Learning to live with yourself

2007-05-09T00:34:58Z

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile...life has been, well crazy. This isn't really an update - more a rambling rant. You have been warned.

I'm not in the best state of mind at the minute. Have been going through a lot of stuff recently and I think a lunch conversation with one of my old friends, a call from my landlord and the exam stress I am currently under has just brought it all to the surface.. with that and my very persistent insomnia - well I think I am loosing my mind. Or what little of it I had vainly been clinging to. My flat mate has spent much of the day shooting me worried glances, and trying to cheer me up. She, like so many others, have failed...miserably. I am going between very contemplative to almost crying, to angry to hysteric in practically the blink of an eye.. and I am get to work out the exact cause.. though I have a few theories.

I recently had a fairly major health scare.. at least I hope it was a scare.. they said 5 to 14 days for the results.. today is day 7.. and yes I am still waiting. I went to the doctor not so long ago and had blood taken. They called me back in to take more blood as they had found protein fragments and antibodies in my blood that shouldn't have been there. Around that time I found I had two solid lumps, one on my neck and a slightly larger one on my lymph node under my arm. I have since had more tests, biopsy and MRI included. Still waiting on the results. I feel I should be more worried.. oddly I'm not. I'm kinda detached, like it is someone else, you know? I mean all of this is like straight out of one of the textbooks.. lol. I don't feel I am in denial over this - I guess people just handle things in their own way. Mine seems to be ignore it. I mean I am not scared, and not hopeful either - just strangely indifferent, (except to my indifference it would seem) I mean that can't be right, right?

My landlord called, they have started showing people round the flat. Term is practically over.. finals are upon me.. and I have to start to think about moving out. No problem, I'm not overly sad to be leaving the flat and with everything that happened with my mum this year, I spent so much time there that this never really started to feel home, you know? But the problem is, going home. It hit me how I just don't have anyone left there. Most of my school friends are gone, either from my life, or from the area. My old work friends, I have either lost touch with or have no interest in seeing. My best friend won't be there until July - and she is moving from the area too. Alan.. well that's just complicated, he's distant now anyway, so doubt he really would want to spend time together. I don't have anyone there.. its in the middle of the countryside so their is nothing to do anyway, I don't even have a room there anymore. My sister has moved in there, and I can't move into her old room as they are building an extension there to accommodate things for my mum. My cat is there.. and I can go visit my friends, and I am going to holiday a few times anyway.. and no rent...but still. I'm dreading it.....big time.

The exams... AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. Okay, enough said. If you can't feel the waves of stress and worry coming through the monitor at you... well your just not looking hard enough. Still I am finding time to procrastinate. My head just isn't in a fit state to study for more than a few hours at a time. But hey, only 6 to go...right?? Shit.

Last but not least, I have just found out that my best friend is hiding things from me. I've been worried about her recently, and I just had this feeling that there might be something going on that she had 'failed' to mention. Well, seems I was right. Mostly I just feel hurt that she can't trust me enough to talk to me, or respect our friendship enough to realise that she means the world to me.. and all I ever want to do is to be there for here, day or night, 24/7. I am closer to her than anyone else on the planet - I would tell her anything. Guess I just hoped it was mutual. Don't get me wrong here.. I'm not angry with her. It is after all, her life, her decision, I just can't shake the feeling that I am still being punished for stupid things I said and did many, many years ago. And that, and this, just kinda crushes something in me that I can't explain. Who knew that something so little, could sometimes just hurt so damn much. Turns out, you can just never wipe the slate clean. And that is something I am just going to have to live with.

One another note, while not sleeping, I have been catching up on some episodes of supernatural.. I am up to the 'Folsom Prison blues' episode. Loving it! :)

Blog things

2007-04-05T19:08:34Z

Totally stolen these from amanofmydreams and fergus80 ..

Your Supernatural adventure by mandatora

Username

Sexual Preference

Weapon of choice

You're

In a dark forest

Where you run into

You meet when

he finds out you're one of the "special children"

He says

"Ever seen the back seat of a '67 Impala?"

He then takes you to

Heaven

Where you

Watch horror movies and eat pizza

The next morning he

tells you he had fun, but he has to leave.

Possibilty of him calling you:

90%

You Are 70% Burned Out

You are very burned out.

You need a huge break from your responsibilities, starting as soon as possible.

And you need this time to reevaluate what you really want out of your life.

Because you're working hard and going no where... and that would burn anyone out!

Are You Burned Out?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Are 44% Sociopath

You're not a sociopath, but you're very prone to antisocial behavior.
Other people's opinions matter little to you. You live your own fringe life - for better or worse.

Are You A Sociopath?

Nuns - definatly the best people on earth..

2007-04-03T22:46:29Z

Hey all..

I have been having a really crappy day! My cat is rather sick so I have been stressed worrying about her. That and all the other stupid things in my life really had me down - so I decided to come online and read some fanfic, and answer my PM's, maybe tidy round the board a little - you know, normal cheer "myself up stuff".

Then I found the NWP ADMIN PODCAST.. and wow... I am shocked! In a good way. You girls rock more than you could possible ever know. We appreciate you guys so much - I can't tell you how much that meant to me tonight. I am almost at a total loss for words. Thanks so much to all of you... quite simply you rock. I have no idea what I ever did to deserve such wonderful people in my life!

*hugs to everyone*

Consider me well and truly cheered up! :D :D

(will post at NWP too, so you all get to see it :) )

Every rain cloud has a silver lining..

2007-03-13T13:38:45Z

It has been a big day for me.

I got 3 hours sleep last night - and woke up feeling just as miserable as ever. I then revised until it was time to leave for my exam. When I left the flat it was sunny, and quite mild for Scottish standards - which was good considering I had no hood on my coat or umbrella with me. Yeah, you guessed it, within minutes the heavens opened and I got soaked to the skin - I literally couldn't see I had so much water in my eyes! So I arrived at the exam soaked and looking like a walking puddle... only to have possibly my worst exam of the term thus far.. I do not look forward to the result. At least when I got back outside again it was dry.. for awhile. The heavens opened again within minutes and again I was soaked. Pretty sucky day so far right? Wrong. As the rain was coming down the second time, and I was blinking water out of my eyes - the strangest thing happened - I could not help but smile. I mean really beam at everyone and everything around me. I have not smiled like that in weeks, months maybe. The old man scowling under his umbrella opposite me looked rather startled - I mean wouldn't you be if you met a soaking wet crazy girl in the park?

Anyway what is with the sudden change of mood you may ask - truth is I don't know myself. My chemical imbalance may have righted itself again..but I think its more than that..it was like I just suddenly knew that it all didn't matter anyway. All of the stuff that has been getting me down - it doesn't matter. So what if I have to be the strong one again, I'm good at it, so why stop now? So what if I don't remember that many birthdays or have too many happy memories to cling on to! I realised that it simply didn't matter 'cause I intend to have many more - and this time, maybe, I can make memories to remember.

I'm not saying I wont wake up tomorrow as stressed and as depressed as I was before.. all I can say for sure is that if sometimes I have to let it all break just to clear my head...then maybe it isn't too bad, as I trust myself to pull through in the end no matter what life throws my way. After all, its not like I've not been here before.

Anyway, I have to go change my clothes.. I am still soaked and dripping on the keyboard. Strange that it took some rain clouds to show me that maybe the sky wasn't so cloudy after all..

Does it all just fade away?

2007-03-12T14:35:39Z

It's amazing how one simple question can get put your head into such a spin isn't it? Just a throw away remark from a friend or a relative and in goes round and round in your mind for weeks..

I had a bad weekend.. and it has left me in a very introverted, overly analytical frame of mind. Judging by my recent mood...well over-thinking things and getting stuck in my own head.. it can't be a good thing.

I don't want to talk about what happened this weekend - not even really ready to think about it all yet. One of the highlights of my weekend was Celtic loosing the Old Firm match to Rangers...yes it really was that bad. That was good however, it pulled my out of my head long enough to be truly upset and angry at the result..

What I am thinking about is something my mum asked us over dinner on Sunday night. What was our best birthday, and our best family holiday? A very simple question, right? My parents and my sisters all could start talking immediately.. they have a lot of good memories, my dad less so, but still my sisters - they had loads. I didn't say much...I found that a lot of my birthdays I have just simply chosen not to remember.. I remember my sisters' birthdays as I had a lot to do with the organisation..but mine -well they have just faded away. Guess that explains why I choose not really to celebrate my birthdays these days huh?

The holidays were a bit easier...but where Louise remembers the good times, I remember having to juggle wheelchairs and luggage in airports..etc. Some of the holidays were great.. but as with most things in life, they seem few and far between.

Did I simply have very few good days? Or has the bad stuff just finally consumed all of my mind? Or is it just that in my current state of mind it all just fades away?

Damn proud of the bhoys...

2007-03-09T12:16:16Z

Thought I would update since I have a half day off from uni today for like the first time in weeks.. What fun thing am I going to do with my afternoon I hear you ask..? Study :( The fun just keeps on coming does it? Oh and when I am done with that I fully intend to sleep..but knowing me I will just simply have to watch the next episode of House and Prison Break.. otherwise I am totally going to have to stop reading my friends LJ pages as it is like spoiler city..

Monday I was rather..depressed to say the least. So much so that while standing in the train station I was very tempted to step out in front of the oncoming train. Helpful station worker in a bright yellow jacket however had other ideas and decided to pull my back by the arm to tell me I was 'too close to the edge' and that it was 'dangerous'.. I refrained from pointed out that that was kind of the point.. Anyway I went home and drank...a lot. The way I was knocking it back cirrhosis here I come.. Oh then I pulled one of my best mates.. was rather a messy situation... the fun just keeps on coming huh? Drink may have drowned my sorrows but damn does it make for one hell of a morning after..

Tuesday - well I recovered from a hangover.. I went to one of my neuroscience labs where we were testing our reaction times...sooo not good when hungover. My results are quite entertaining to say the least ;)

Wednesday - I was in uni 9 til 5 solidly..fun fun, huh? Then I bolted down dinner, studied a little and I went to the pub to watch Celtic (football team- one of the main loves of my life - I am very scary fanatical) play AC Milan (one of the best football teams on the planet) in the last 16 of the Champions League. It was the second leg, and was being played in Milan.. suffice to say I was not holding out much hope. AC had come to Celtic Park the week before and made us look like inferior visitors in our own stadium...they really played us off the park - and for our part...well we were woeful.. Somehow though, the game ended 0-0.
Anyway, I expected to go to Milan and be absolutely slaughtered.. We didn't.
We played amazingly well.. every single player played with the kind of skill and determination that I have rarely seen in a football side. It was awe inspiring. That night I was immensely proud of them all. AC Milan are simply out of our league..way way better than us, and we matched them blow for blow all over the park. The game ended 0-0 and had to go to extra time. At this point we were almost starting to believe we had half a chance.. I swear I thought my heart was going to give out in my chest it was going so fast..
Anyway, this is where the story gets a little less great.. AC scored.. after 30 mins extra time it had ended 1-0 and we were out.. gutted just about sums up up. But you know what? There was no shame in that. AC are bigger than us, and better than us.. and yet they didn't look it. We played our hearts out, the fans sang there hearts out.. even after it was all over they were still there cheering our player, waving our scarves and singing so load it resounded round the stadium. Those 10 thousand fans gave a better showing of themselves than the 57 thousand AC fans.. and again I was damn proud - of every single person there in green and white..players, coaches, fans..everyone.. we did ourselves proud - and in the end that is the best thing we could ever ask for.

Thursday - more uni.. and moping over the demise of the European dream.. then I went out for lunch, then drinks, then dinner with one of my good friends from school who I very rarely get to see these days. She is home in Glasgow for the weekend, and seeing her was great...really cheered me up.. Then on the walk home that night the heavens opened and i got soaked ot the skin... it has not stopped raining here since..

Today... well I have already spent all morning in uni.. and not as I said it is back to studying for me.. until its time to drink again.. lol... Anyone seeing a pattern here?

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